Tuesday, December 2, 2025

Dimana Radoeva : Three poems

 

 

1.
i am interested in furthering the discourse on reality, but first i
would love it if you let me showcase this ak-47 i made out of origami
and it isn't a violence thing i swear - i saw a documentary about a guy
scamming twenty teenagers into paying thousands to go to a fake football college 

and it is simply the American Dream broadcasted into the stratosphere
to believe in yourself so much that it makes you suicidal
i decided to become a better version of myself last summer and
by that i mean i am broke and looking for a roommate at this shooting range
bullet casings closet i live in
at the outskirts of Ohio. 

what is everyone up to these days what's
cool and important
other than
the blood behind the door?

 

 

 

2.
I'M PRACTICING SEMEN RETENTION AT THE BACK OF THE CLUB
DON'T LOOK AT ME! 

I'M WEARING A TASTEFUL LITTLE JACKET TO COURT TOMORROW I WANT TO
LOOK LIKE A GUY WHO'S HOPEFUL ABOUT THE RESULT OF HIS KIDS' CUSTODY CASE
A FEW WEEKS AGO, MY BLOODSHOT GAZE ZERO'D IN ON THE BACK OF THIS GUY ON THE TREADMILL IN FRONT OF ME.
HE WAS WEARING A T-SHIRT THAT LOOKED LIKE CUSTOM MERCHANDISE
FOR A TIMESHARE IN FLORIDA
GOD, SHARON WOULD NEVER LET ME HAVE SHIT LIKE THAT,
BUT SHE COULD NOT STOP ME FROM BUYING TECHWEAR TRENCHCOATS
FROM INCREASINGLY DISRESPUTABLE EBAY SELLERS. 

I APPEAR IN FRONT OF THE JUDGE TODAY LOOKING SHARP,
MY LAWYER BEGS ME NOT TO SPEAK DURING THE PROCEEDINGS.
I CANNOT STOP MYSELF FROM MUTTERING OUT,
 

“Woe unto you, ye souls depraved
Hope nevermore to look upon the heavens;
I come to lead you to the other shore,
To the eternal shades in heat and frost."
 

THE JUDGE, WHOM I RESPECTED UNTIL HE DECIDED TO ENGAGE WITH ME IN A KINETIC MANNER,
ASKED ME TO REPEAT WHAT I HAD SAID UNDER MY BREATH
I SAID, I AM QUOTING FROM DANTE'S INFERNO,
INTRODUCING CHARON - THE BOATSMAN OF THE DAMNED SOULS OF HELL!
I AM TOLD TO REFRAIN FROM SPEAKING UP AGAIN.
OF COURSE, EVERY MAN IN MY POSITION IS AN ISLAND.
UNLIKE YOU ALL, I DEFEATED THE FIERY EYED CHARON AT LEAST FIVE TIMES
DURING MY ALL ACHIEVEMENT RUN OF DANTE'S INFERNO ON MY XBOX 360. 

I OFFER ONE LAST GESTURE OF RESPECT TO THE JUDGE
ON MY WAY OUT THE DOOR
BY PULLING MY LEFT HAND IN A SWIFT MILITARY-STYLE SALUTE.
BEFORE I COULD DECIDE WHETHER HE WAS INTO IT OR NOT,
THE TEN STRAPS AND CARABINERS ATTACHED TO MY TECHWEAR COAT SLEEVE
GET CAUGHT ON THE DOOR HANDLE, PULLING ME TO THE GROUND. 
AS I SCREAM IN TERROR, I AM BESIEGED BY VISIONS OF VIRGIL'S
TEDIOUS UNSKIPPABLE DIALOGUE AFTER HE GIVES DANTE THE ATTACK ABILITY
TO DO A SPIN-KICK THAT SPLITS CHARON'S FACE IN HALF: 

"Charon the demon, with the eyes of glede,
Beckoning to them, collects them all together,
Beats with his oar whoever lags behind."

  

 

3. YOU ARE THE KING – you are certain that your court jesters want you dead
SIRE, YOUR CHEST CAVES IN AT ODD ANGLES
 AND WE KNOW THE BEST ONE HURTS THE MOST
(INTERNALLY) WE WOULD CLAW OUR WAY IN
NO INVITATION NEEDED TO THE FEAST, WE
 CLAIM OWNERSHIP OF YOUR FLESHY GUTS.
WHAT LIVES UNDER THOSE ROYAL INSIDES?
LET US COUNT THEM OUT FOR YOU, MY KING
AH – A SINGLE WYRM WIGGLES INSIDE YOUR INTESTINES…
TWO CROOKED RIBS ON EACH SIDE, A
 PULSING HEART SPECKLED WITH BLACK
THREE MICE CRAWL OUT OF EACH OF OUR
CHECKERED, FLUFFY SLEEVES AND LAND
 RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CORPSE’S
 BATTLEFIELD – OUR DEEPEST APOLOGIZIES,
THE BETS WE ARE MAKING ON WHO IS WINNING THE
PAW TO PAW COMBAT ARE NOT INDICATIVE OF
THE HOUSE BANNER OF CHIVALRY.
BUT WE TWIST YOUR FLAILING ARMS AS THE RODENTS
SKITTER AND DEVOUR DIVINE SUSTENANCE.
DO NOT MOVE, DEAR KING
LET US EXTRACT THE PAIN, EXTOL YOUR SINS.
SHALL WE TIE A JAUNTY RIBBON MADE OF INTENSTINE SILK?
PIERCE THE MIDDLE WITH A SHARP RIB CHUNK,
JESTER COMPANION. IGNORE THE SCREAMS FROM UNDER
THE BEJEWELED CROWN.
 AH – HOW DECORATED DO YOU FEEL NOW, WARRIOR-KING?
 THE MICE CIRCLE YOUR BLACKENED HEART, THEIR TAILS DANCING.

Oh for all the mercies in God’s Land,
just put the fucking hat on.
Forget the fact that you woke up
tied to your throne, a great sword’s tip
aimed at your forehead.  

Yes, once the hat is on, the chimes will become
more bearable. They ring out in protest, but
you get used to the humiliation.
 





Dimana Radoeva is professionally unemployed and working on a game about Beowulf that is also about the internet (CHURL). She just bought an electronic piano from Facebook Marketplace for 70$.

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