The 'process note’ pieces were originally solicited
by Maw Shein Win as addendum to her teaching particular poems and poetry
collections for various workshops and classes. This process note and poems by
Carolyn Miller are part of her curriculum for Maker, Mentor, Muse and poetry classes at
the University of San Francisco, Dominican University, and Saint Mary’s College
of California. Thank you for reading.

The
original manuscript for Random Universe (Sixteen Rivers Press, 2026) was
made up of poems taken from my Uncollected Poems folder, several of which had
been published but had never seemed to fit into any other manuscript because
they were too weird, or too long, and/or too not-serious compared with the
poems in my other books. Several of them were mistranslations, poems written
while “translating” from poems in a language that I have no knowledge of:
Swedish, Russian, Polish, Egyptian hieroglyphics. The title of the manuscript
itself is taken from “At Large in the Random Universe,” a poem that I’m sure is
a mistranslation though I have long forgotten what poem it was based on.
I
put this first version of the manuscript together years ago, then sent it out
to various poetry contests with no encouraging results. (In the meantime, I put
together a newer manuscript of newer work, which I am now sending around with
the same lack of results.) Once I decided to submit the manuscript to Sixteen
Rivers Press, a Northern California poetry collective to which I belong, I
redid the manuscript, dividing it into three parts and adding new poems.
As
I did with my first three books, I organized the manuscript for Random
Universe by the time-honored method placing the poems on the floor in rows,
then moving them around to follow some kind of intuitive order. Unlike my
earlier books, this one was not organized chronologically and made up mostly of
poems about Missouri, where I grew up, and poems about California, where I have
lived for many years. Random Universe begins with a poem about the
ascension of the Virgin of Guadalupe in the village of San Miguel de Allende in
Mexico. Although I am not religious, I am a fan of this Virgin and her combined
Christian and pagan iconography, and something about the idea of ascending
seemed a good way to begin this manuscript. After this first poem, the next one
is about the angels in William Blake’s garden, and the rest seemed to follow
from that one in a kind of order by being in relation to the preceding poem and
leading in either subject or tone to the following poem. While there is no real
narrative arc, for there is no real narrative, I like to think that the poems
do take the reader on a kind of journey of widely varying experiences and
states of mind. There are many different subjects and settings here, but all of
them take place in an expanding physical and mental universe, and the book ends
with a kind of logical illogic, with poems of apotheosis, ecstasy, and fire.
I
have been writing poetry for a long time now, starting in grade school and
continuing through high school and college, with a hiatus of eight years while
I was married. After moving to San Francisco in 1970 as a single mother with
two young children, it took me several years to find my feet and start
publishing in little zines (including Comet, published by Maw Shein
Win!). But I date my becoming a poet to the first Napa Valley Poetry Conference
in 1981, where I studied with Robert Hass in a faculty that included Carolyn
Kizer, Carolyn Forché, Robert Pinsky, Frank Bidart, and Galway Kinnell. It was
there that I found my tribe, the poetry community, making friendships with
poets that continue to this day and joining with Jeanne Lohmann, another poet
attending the conference, to form a writing group in San Francisco. (Later, my
tribe expanded to include visual artists, including students of the artist
Leigh Hyams, with whom I studied for many years).
That
writing group started in 1981 continues today, though I am the only original
member. Originally, we met in person twice a month, but these days we meet once
a month on Zoom, and four times a year in person for an all-day
generative-writing workshop. The poetry collective Sixteen Rivers Press, which
has published three of my books, including Random Universe, grew out of
this writing group in 1999. It has been a seemingly random poetic journey in
which I have had the great good luck to live my life as a poet and painter on
this Earth.
Día de la Asunción, San Miguel de
Allende
She leaves in the middle of August when
squash and their blossoms are sold in the streets,
and in the mercado,
pomegranates are opened
and divided into stars. She rises over
the excrement of dogs on the sidewalks
and rain funneled into the trough of the narrow
brown stream. She is lifted above the flat
rooftops studded with gas tanks and hung
with laundry. She ascends with the smoke clouds
of fireworks and the fragrance of corn
cooking over charcoal, leaving
behind her curious story: the stranger
with blue and scarlet wings, the night
journey through the desert, the child
mysteriously given and mysteriously taken
away. See how she floats slowly up
through the bell-shaken air, our Mother,
carrying roses. Soon she will rise
over rings of volcanoes and fields
of banana trees and the sea lumpy
with whales. Already, the hem of her blue
robe is hard to make out against
the shocking blue sky. Now all we can see
are the soles of her small, sandaled feet,
shedding the clay-colored dust of the earth.
At Large
in the Random Universe
The fat, silver, libidinous tuba took wing
in a purple purgatory, where the far-reaching clouds
were clabbered, and a terrible, gelid nimbus
like a halo of strawberry Jell-O surrounded the sun.
Meanwhile, a poky bunny was trying to cross the freeway
and ribbeting frogs were enduring wedding bells;
the geese and goldfish ate as much as they could, hoping
for more, and in the darkness of Paris, a hail of stamens
fell over the gelatos and espressos and café mochas
to swim in the chocolate glaze of small cakes
and slowly sink in the florid teacups.
Then the half-naked dandelions began to dance,
without shoes or camisoles or crinolines, wearing only
their golden taffeta skirts and their peppery perfume,
while the irises sighed like royalty, the bougainvillea
trembled in its phantom paradise, and azaleas
floated in the sexy grandmother’s curly hair.
Somewhere a tiger is slinking westward,
waiting to run, as the snowy owl waits in his turret for
the forgetful mouse in the straw. I remember caresses,
fidgeting fingers, that peculiar time on the rug, the mask—
but I would rather forget the tapestries we chose,
the dross that intensifies and turns to ashes,
the mumbling of blond, embittered Hamlet.
Yet still I hear the waterwheel, the slapping
and coughing and snarling of the flux
we dwell in, in this grungy theater damned by degrees
and cracked like Spode, this college of disease
where we are leashed to process, though we would rather
shatter our glasses like gypsies and sashay through the
trash.
Instead we are twisted like Gumby, riveted by
unsettling leeches, those bloodsuckers that hurt us
like scissors or table saws, that torture us
with tongs and chopsticks until our eyeballs burst like
pods.
While I want only to wear lace and a choker of pearls
and to eat Bayonne ham on a doily, forgetting
the icepicks, gulping my bread, deaf to the world
and its crowded cornucopia.
Aria
Nothing is so beautiful as the ground
of being. And though the possible too
is beautiful, for it is the engine of desire, nothing
is so beautiful as the real, like unexpected flowers
on the doorstep: fragrant, fragile, marked for death,
unfolding moment by moment, lighting the room,
lingering in the mind long after they have faded.
The lushness of meaning rose to its height in summer,
festooned with lilies and snapdragons, bouqueted
with leaves and the tiny white flowers
that turn into beggar’s lice. I picked bunch after
bunch and brought them back for my mother’s dining
table, where they dropped showers of petals and stamens
and pistils, leaf hairs and insects and pollen, seed
pods and leaves, dirt and dust and drops of sap.
The green paths of the world keep calling, edged with poison
oak and wild asparagus, crumbled with broken rock
and trampled herbs. So time extends. The past grows deep
and rich; the future moves toward me, cruel and bounteous,
like the sea.
Les Choses
Close
attention to things may make them seem strange.
—Jean Follain, from A World Rich in Anniversaries
Things may be larger than they appear.
They may be more mottled, more distorted. They may be ungainly, or they may be
supreme fulfillments of their ideal form. Some things may be hidden. Some may
travel back and forth between the conscious and unconscious realms. Some may
take a metaphoric leap; others, like grasshoppers or frogs, may take real
leaps. Sometimes you may think that your life is sad and empty, yet at the same
time crowded with unwanted and unneeded objects. Yet if you awake in the middle
of the night, thinking about death or about how difficult living is, you may be
comforted to be surrounded by them. Your paintings and your books and
furniture, your adored cups and plates, the small keepsakes that were given to
you or that once belonged to a loved one—even your kitchen appliances—all the
things that you will someday leave behind are faithfully existing for you now;
they are breathing quietly in and out in unison, keeping watch over you in the
night.

Carolyn Miller lives in San Francisco, where she writes, paints, and
works as a freelance book editor. Her books of poetry are Random Universe (2026),
Light, Moving (2009); and After Cocteau (2002) from Sixteen Rivers
Press; Route 66 and Its Sorrows (2017) from Terrapin Books; and four
limited-edition letterpress chapbooks from Protean Press. Her poems have been
featured on Poetry Daily and The Writer’s Almanac and have
appeared in Smartish Pace, SALT, ONE ART, The Southern Review, and The
Gettysburg Review, among other journals, as well as in several anthologies,
including Garrison Keillor’s Good Poems: American Places. Her honors
include the James Boatwright III Award for Poetry from Shenandoah and
the Rainmaker Award from Zone 3.
Maw Shein Win’s
most recent full-length poetry collection is Percussing the Thinking Jar (Omnidawn)
which was shortlisted for the 2025 Northern California Book Award in Poetry.
Her previous full-length collection Storage Unit for the Spirit House
(Omnidawn) was longlisted for the PEN America 2021 Open Book Award, and
shortlisted for the Golden Poppy Award for Poetry. She is the inaugural poet
laureate of El Cerrito, CA, the recipient of the 2026 George Garrett Award for
Outstanding Community Service in Literature, 2025 Berkeley Poetry Festival
Lifetime Achievement Award, and the 2025 Nomadic/SF Foundation Literary Award
for Non-fiction. She is a member of The Writers Grotto and a co-founder of
Maker, Mentor, Muse. She teaches poetry in the MFA Programs at the University
of San Francisco, Dominican University, and Saint Mary’s College of California.
mawsheinwin.com