Showing posts with label Wanda Praamsma. Show all posts
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Monday, July 4, 2022

Wanda Praamsma : words on aversions // nothing special

 

 

 


nothing special forms the bulk of this chapbook. It is documentation, a recording, of my lived experience as a mother during the first years of my children’s lives (the first year with my son, the first year with my daughter). I wanted to write into that space where you cannot write. I wanted to see the descent on the page – the movement of self into this new, deeper place, where I had to begin fully anew, where every mother/birthing person begins anew. I recorded thoughts, whispers of self, happenings, memories. It is raw material, & it is shaped.

nothing special is also a refusal – a rejection of silence, of not writing about mothering & transformation of self. It is a rebuke of all those who advise women against writing about this & who keep our experiences out of journals, books, etc. It follows the voices of many other mother-writers, many whose works I cherished during these years … Anne Waldman, Adrienne Rich, Daphne Marlatt, Louise Erdrich, Carmen Giménez Smith …

aversions came before nothing special, & is the beginning of a god/religion exploration, playful & undetermined in form. The two, aversions & nothing special, seemed to fit together, this constant uncovering of self & identity, this yearning to be uncontained.

may 2022

 

 

 

 

Wanda Praamsma is a poet and writer based in Kingston, Ontario. Her first book of poetry, a thin line between, was published by Book*hug in 2014, and her chapbook, aversions // nothing special, was published by above/ground press in 2022. Her poems have appeared in periodicities, ottawater, eleven eleven, Lemon Hound, and The Feathertale Review, and non-fiction pieces have appeared in the Toronto Star.

 

Tuesday, April 6, 2021

Wanda Praamsma : Propositions & Prayers, by Lise Downe

Propositions & Prayers, Lise Downe
Book*hug, 2020

 

 

Amidst the rational milieu of pandemic living – living by the facts, figures, rules – my mind at first resisted immersing itself in Lise Downe’s most recent book of poems, Propositions & Prayers. Perhaps this is the difficulty so many readers and literature-lovers have faced this past year: we are struggling so hard to keep rooted, to understand and to process what we are living through, it is almost impossible to let ourselves let go enough to revel in more expansive thinking, the obscure and the abstruse, and to dance amidst nonduality and not-knowing.

Almost is the key word, though. Because when you break down all the bracing, all the holding, there is entrance into what is beyond our day-to-day machinations, a movement toward an “essential quiet / ness or quiet / ude” (74), not unlike the settling of the mind during yoga and meditation, the cessation of the fluctuations of the mind-stuff. This is also what happens when you allow yourself entry into Downe’s latest work.

I interspersed my reading of Propositions & Prayers with books on Zen Buddhism and koans, those little stories that tweak your thinking and nudge you to approach a problem, or life in general, with a more open-minded, open-ended perspective. The little healing stories keep you on your toes, urging you not to become too attached; they offer choices, no set answers. It’s up to you.

The same applies to Downe’s work. In brief snippets, her propositions, which make up most of the book, exude this willingness to explore and to question what we know, what can we know, is there a point to knowing? Or can we simply wander, observe, wander, observe.

what of charms and rattles, absorbing facts
pooled together, I mean
I’m not trying to indict anyone

but what do we know
other than quotes skirting

every margin of truth 

And then later in the same proposition, this assurance of change:

any thorny patch or song, and the rest
shadowing all we saw anyway
the way the light switches

anyway   
(48)

Like a koan, each little poem is a portal into understanding through misunderstanding. Quirky daily observations mix with higher-plane philosophical and metaphysical statements that lure me into big mind, the mind that is everything, according to Zen. Downe sends me this message: we are not constant, our knowledge is not constant, we are ever-shifting. Through these propositions and longer prayers, and with a rhythm that clips and hops with alliteration and inquisitive enjambment, Downe is a gracious and curious leader, guiding us as we guide ourselves.

On these winding paths or portals she creates, we are led to some absurd ends and also to blissful ends, where we can clearly linger in the perfection of the view right in front of our eyes:

if one needs cheering up
take a detour round the back
and see what’s surfacing

grassland, drumlins, ocean
  (67)

Downe reminds us that we need not be so bound – to anything. And I love how in one of her final propositions of the book, she urges – proposes – the need to release the questions, and like an artist inspired and fearless (Downe is also a visual artist), just keep going:

don’t even ask who is driving
or
Why am I doing this?
both hands on the wheel

and so it goes, like so
on and on and soon

it is
   (69)

We can release the clinging, the desire to know everything and all possible outcomes. We can go exploring and linger in unknowing.

Sure, this is harder to do in a pandemic, but we can try. And reading Downe’s work helps.

 

 

 

Wanda Praamsma is a poet and writer based in Kingston, Ontario. Her first book of poetry, a thin line between, was published by Book*hug in 2014, and poems have appeared in periodicities, ottawater, eleven eleven, Lemon Hound, and The Feathertale Review.

Monday, August 3, 2020

Wanda Praamsma : Two poems




day four


postpartum bodies
of water      receding

backwards
into      a lake    a love    a swamp      

the sheaths     of skin      & under          
delicate     ripe     responding to catcalls

& cortisol      clots of blood curdling   
out      excretions so big    

exclamations      tumbling floor-ward     
nipples     raw     red         the belly   

deflated      warmed
&     stung      




reflection


once-taut seams
split      rip      

selves       unknown    
beyond my own       time aches   

through the vaginal walls      & I am
backward        awkward    

crêpe-paper thin        imaginings     
like skin        maligned   

inside my mind       dual-spun       
vast tundra of undissected

memories       no truce
not tight      not loose





Wanda Praamsma’s [photo credit: Bernard Clark] first book of poetry, a thin line between, was published by Book*hug in 2014. Her poetry has appeared in Ottawater, eleven eleven, Lemon Hound, and The Feathertale Review. She lives in Kingston, Ontario. Read her blog at swallowwriting.ca


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