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Sunday, December 1, 2024

Kevin Spenst : Whatever Heals You

part three in a series of three personal essays mixing travelogue and review
see part one here : see part two here

 

 

 

Day 3: Discovery Park

     From Vancouver, at Prospect Point, anyone can see Mount Baker, a glacier-coated mountain my family could see from a small living room side window in Surrey; here in Seattle, Cheryl and I are admiring it from Alki Beach. In Canada, it stands for the south. In Seattle, it stands for the north. It’s the fifth biggest mountain in the Cascades where it plays countless roles for other directions, people and creatures. It’s one of the many distant mountains that surrounds Seattle.

     Later in the afternoon, Cheryl and I explore Discovery Park, a large space equivalent to Vancouver’s Stanley Park. Colonialism’s history (aka military history or white settler history) is on display in both parks: in Vancouver the military presence is still active in Coal Harbour, a holdout from the time when the military wanted Stanley Park in the 1800s as a base to protect Canada from American invaders. Discovery Park has a decommissioned military reserve of large older buildings standing far apart from each other over large swaths of mown grass. It’s got a creepy vibe and feels a little like the Stepford Wives. The American military established Fort Lawton in Seattle in 1900. This most tranquil of places holds at its centre obvious markers of colonialism. It feels like a good place to reflect upon the poetry of Jess H̓áust̓i, not that the writer engages in military history, but their collection Crushed Wild Mint intimately conveys a spirituality rooted in the viscera of the body to the mountains that hold living ancestors in a grounded resistance to those who would delineate the world in borders, binaries and the 24-hour clock.

     From their website: “Jess is a Haíɫzaqv parent, poet, and land-based educator living in their homelands in the community of Bella Bella, BC. Crushed Wild Mint honours those homelands in ritualistic poems.

     “Praying is dreaming out loud / with my ancestors,” the speaker tells us in the opening poem, “The Future.” The past and future are brought together in the ceremonial timelessness of a prayer, but the poem also reminds us of how laughter can partake in this sacredness. The poem defines prayer as that which gives “anatomy / to futurity,” the preserve of the past into the future. This idea of anatomy is brought to visceral light in a few poems later, where the speaker suggests “If I were to gut you like a deer, / the smell of good earth and the clarity of green things, the musk and the humus, that scent would rise up / like a prayer.” These lines hold no hint of morbidity, and within the context of gentleness and reverence that runs throughout the collection, they are offered as a vision. Not only are other creatures acknowledged as a part of the speaker’s world, but their existence parallels our own. The poem begins with deer chewing and ends with the speaker’s loved one chewing. More specifically, the speaker’s loved one is mourning some loss and this imagined ceremony of gutting is something offered to help “lift out from the birdsong sorrow / you hold in your mouth.” Familial love guides us through the ceremony of “Ruminant/Remnant.”

     The overlapping lives of other beings we share the planet with is a central part of the poem/prayers in H̓áust̓is book (and certainly some cultures centre that sharing in ways that others can only imagine.) What I adore about Crushed Wild Mint is the echoes of wisdom literature from other corners of the world. I grew up on the Old Testament so its hard not to hear the Song of Solomon in the poem You Are Inseparable, but instead of romantic, its familial and/or self-love:

There are flocks of songbirds

sleeping in your hair,

deer’s wisdom compacted in your heels,

salmon in the creeks of your veins.

 

Your body and the land

have collaborated for your safety and joy

The imagery of the land blends into the body and vice versa. This acknowledgement of the inseparable relationship between a West Coast people and the land is something I can admire from a distance, while trying not to be a white settler tourist (though I’m clearly all three.)

     The fifth and last section of Crushed Wild Mint takes us into the mountains. As if enacting the long journey of climbing a mountain, many of these poems are longer than others in the collection. In the last section of one of these long poems, we read

These are living

Geographies.

 

This is especially true

when the crown of the mountain

was a gift from the weary body

of that mountain’s brother.

 

 “iv. You have arrived”

Here the process of mountain formation is personified at a familial level. H̓áust̓is ancestors saw these mountains generations ago and the thousands of years are compressed within poetry.

     This last section ends with “Prayer (II)” which begins “Creator, / go before us in all things, / especially small things.” Under the majesty of the names of mountains in the previous poems, we return to the smallest of things around us and this poem ends with a prayer “for the blessedness / of perpetual memory.” Climbing a mountain might hold a story of memorable moments but when that mountain is understood as a sacred being, it is also preserving memory on a different scale in space and time. Someone whose family has lived in a place since time immemorial can define and connect with that perpetual memory. 

     Vancouver and Seattle preserve the memory of their “great fires” (both in the 1880s) old civic leaders (both Seattle and Vancouver had American mayors charged with bigamy) and the centuries of colonialism in street names and statues. There are exceptions and I believe they have been growing. In 1970, activists took over Fort Lawton as part of the growing American Indian Movement. The Indigenous activities armed with “cooking utensils” came to occupy the land. They were met with armed resistance and skirmishes took place over three months until an agreement was reached:

In July 1971 negotiations started [...] In November an agreement was reached with the United Indians for a 99-year lease to build an Indian cultural center in the Park. The groundbreaking ceremony took place on September 27, 1975, and the impressive Daybreak Star Cultural Center opened on May 13, 1977.

                                                             https://www.historylink.org/File/8772

     In 2022, participants in the Downtown Eastside Women’s Memorial March toppled Gassy Jack. The statue had been erected in 1970 as a bid to boost tourism in Gastown, but the fact that he’d married an indigenous woman and then, when she died, her 12-year-old niece rang too close to the violence towards murdered and missing indigenous women. Statues are coming down and new totems (at Hastings and Carol) are coming up.

    Cheryl and I do a loop at Discovery Park and pass tourists, locals and far off mountains in the distance. We try to take in as much as we can while acknowledging there’s only so much we can take in.

Days 4,5&6:

Bumbershoot and we dance ourselves loose. We shake the way little dogs shake after encountering a frighteningly big dog. As humans, we have this thing called music to help us shake off our stress. Over six weeks this past summer, I was in emergency four times and I was laid up for weeks on end. At times, it was excruciating. There was no clear diagnosis. I’m finally almost one hundred percent and I dance off the fears of the summer. After dancing to the Montreal psyche-rock band TEKE::TEKE, the first person I hand a line of poetry to hugs me with the biggest smile I’ve ever seen. I give out a few other lines of poetry and everyone at the festival gets it. On our drive home, we stop for dinner in Bellingham. When we tell our server we’ve been to Bumbershoot, she gets chatty. “When I was young, I went to Bumbershoot,” she tells us but she seems young so it’s hard for us to imagine her younger. I give her my last line of poetry, which is by Patrick Grace. She is thrilled.

Envoi:

     Isn’t it lovely to return to words you haven’t heard in decades. On our last afternoon, in reading about Seattle history, I come across this:

'Man did not weave the web of life, he is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself.'

 

--Chief Si’ahl, Namesake of the City of Seattle

When I was a teenager, after I stopped going to church, I religiously watched the Power of Myth on PBS. At the end of the series, Joseph Campbell quotes the words of Chief Si’ahl. I wrote the words out and shared them during our school’s graduation ceremony held in the gymnasium at SFU on top of Burnaby Mountain. During the ceremony, one of my classmates, who’d failed at least once and bullied me in my first year at junior high, leaned in to me and whispered, “I gotta piss.” As I stood up to go to the podium to give my valedictorian address, he drunkenly pleaded, “Keep it short.”

    The sacred and profane are neighbours, living, at times, on reasonably friendly terms. So too poetry resides next to prose. Cities live next to each other with slightly different orientations but with the same giants in the distance. Giants some can know with an intimacy that others are oblivious to, but which demands respect if we care about justice, about living with the right words around us.

 

 

 

 

Kevin Spenst (he/him) is the author of sixteen chapbooks and three full-length books of poetry plus his newest collection A Bouquet Brought Back from Space (Anvil Press, 2024). He is one of the organizers of the Dead Poets Reading Series, has a chapbook review column for subTerrain magazine, occasionally co-hosts Wax Poetic on Vancouver Co-op Radio, and is the 2025 Poetry Mentor at The Writer’s Studio at Simon Fraser University in Vancouver on unceded xʷməθkʷəy̓əm (Musqueam), Swx̱wú7mesh (Squamish) and səl̓ilw̓ətaʔɬ (Tsleil-Waututh) territory where he cohabitates with the one and only Cheryl Rossi.

Wednesday, October 2, 2024

Kevin Spenst : Whatever Heals You

 

 

“The paradox inherent in travel, the response system, the gall, the privilege, the gifts, the assaults and accounting.” — Tawhida Tanya Evanson

Midnight Arrival

I’m writing this in Seattle, Washington, in the home of strangers, a young couple I’ve never met. They are in New York, staying in the home of other strangers. Last night, Cheryl and I arrived in Seattle just after midnight. We went to a hotel where we showed a number to the front desk and they gave us a backpack. In it was a fob, clicker and keys in the side pocket. This was the arrangement. We drove the final five blocks and used the clicker to open the parking garage gate and then we used the fob to get into the building (though at first we weren’t sure which entrance to use in the large underground parking) and then we used the same fob to get into the apartment where we are staying for a week. I feel like I’m part of some espionage operation though I don’t think Cheryl and I could pass for Nitin and Shivani and I have no idea what my instructions are. I mean I know I have to write and I’ve brought three books of poetry from Canada with lines that I’ve written out to pass along to strangers. At the end of the week, we have a two-day music festival to go to and so before then, I’m going to try to make myself feel less of a tourist by sharing lines of poetry from Patrick Grace, DS Stymeist and Jess Housty.

Day 1: Lune Cafe || Deviant

I have the best memory

of what it means

to be gay

at the end

of summer.

We’ve arrived by city bus to Pioneer Square and I couldn’t feel like more of a tourist. There are groups of tourists galore on most every street corner being led by loud guides. We’re hungry so we’ve ducked into Lune Cafe, where we order from a touchscreen which has pictures of all our options. At the end, there’s an option for tipping, but I’m not sure who this would be for. There is no contact with anyone working here. I sit and write beneath a wall of astroturf suggesting something green. In neon are the words: glowww (with three w’s.) The word is on other walls in the phrase ‘let’s glow!’

     Words matter but it’s also the person (or voice) behind the words that’s even a bigger part of what matters. In Patrick Grace’s first book of poetry Deviant, a loose narrative is set up from the first page, where

It began in a field where two boys

played in a circle of melting snow.

In this opening poem “Why Not,” an almost pastoral setting is created in an alliteration of “finches and foxes” “while the rest of the world / pressed buttons and touched screens.” Moving forward in couplets, the poem presents two boys throwing a baseball that they’ve found. One of them hurtles it at the other’s ribs for no particular reason. This escalates to the ball being thrown back within packed snow at the other’s face. The pastoral descends into a singular emotion: “boys learn the edges // of what they hold in their hands // when angered.” The pastoral opening (“creeping phlox flourished”) has been replaced by something cold and hard.

    This mix of longing for something lovely and someone beloved with violence seems to be the central tension of the book. The way through is in finding the right words. “Dasterdly” is the second poem in the collection, one which begins with the speaker learning the word from his mother in describing a “devilish boy in red shorts” and the speaker’s uncertain stirrings of desire. By the end of the first section, this mix is blended in the last stanza of a poem about

learning to taste

 

another boys’ spit and dreaming

it could be warm, secreted

special, just for my mouth.

This poem “Nightcall” is one of my favourites in the collection. The geography is the most precise (“wandering up the hill from Kits Beach”) and the language play is at its loveliest (“banana-scented sunscreen sheen.”) There’s even a word made up for the occasion of the poem: Blundersight, which seems to be a portmanteau of blunder and blindsighted. It’s as if the tension between beauty and the ugliness of violence forces a new language into being.

     The titular deviance of Grace’s collection mixes throughout the rest of the book in poems written in mostly couplets, tercets, quatrains or just single long stanzas. In a more varied stanzaic form, “A Violence” circles around an inquiry into an incident of domestic violence, with the speaker asking: “did they believe you / did the man in blue believe / another man / committed the violence.” This section (there are five in total, like fingers in a fist?) goes on to explore this toxic relationship. Fear, nightmares and the distancing language and cold, biassed word choices from those who are supposed to serve and protect dominate this section. 

    What heals someone after a lifetime of minor and major traumatic encounters? This books suggests language that reenvisions a life. The last section has four poems, the first one beginning:

At first the world was body.

I didn’t question the gold

hardening its rivers inside me.

The last poem recalls the image of a gap, a hole, a tunnel that has run throughout the book as a place of solace and the poem ends on greenness and brightness:

In the parking lot the older kids killed it

with their stories, their names, their viridity.

 

Miles away, a boy dove into a river of gold,

his body flexuous, extend under the sun.

Perhaps, I’m being overly optimistic in my reading. There is some ambiguity throughout the book, which may reflect the speaker’s coming to terms with who he is (ambiguity as a stand in for ambivalence?) What I love about the collection as a whole is the reworking of images and lines. One of the poems near the very end seems to be written from lines found throughout the collection. The obsession that drives any writer in trying to understand something is on full luminous (and ‘burning’) display.

 

 

 

 

 

Kevin Spenst (he/him) is the author of sixteen chapbooks and three full-length books of poetry plus his newest collection A Bouquet Brought Back from Space (Anvil Press, 2024). He is one of the organizers of the Dead Poets Reading Series, has a chapbook review column for subTerrain magazine, occasionally co-hosts Wax Poetic on Vancouver Co-op Radio, and is the 2025 Poetry Mentor at The Writer’s Studio at Simon Fraser University in Vancouver on unceded xʷməθkʷəy̓əm (Musqueam), Swx̱wú7mesh (Squamish) and səl̓ilw̓ətaʔɬ (Tsleil-Waututh) territory where he cohabitates with the one and only Cheryl Rossi.

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